Spirituality, Travel, Writing

The Pelican

“There’s something wrong with that pelican,” I said. My husband and his brother and I had just completed half of an annual tradition: a Thanksgiving weekend beach walk on Marco Island, FL. We’d just reached the southern tip of the island and were preparing to turn around when I spotted the bird.

It had landed in a crevice between rocks on the jetty, presumably pursuing prey, but then it kept hanging out there in a most un-pelican-like fashion. Maybe it was just resting? (Porter and I did once see a hummingbird–one of those those masters of perpetual motion–sit in a tree for several minutes!) But then the pelican raised its wings as though intending to fly, yet did not achieve liftoff. It settled back down, tried again a minute later, and a minute after that. Something was definitely wrong.

I didn’t know which direction the tide was headed, but if nothing changed, eventually the water would be over the bird’s head. I kept hoping someone would notice . . . the man fishing off the end of the jetty, perhaps, or the woman collecting shells at the water’s edge. But the pelican was camouflaged, brown against brown, and each person walked away, unseeing.

Finally, another man and woman picked their way across the rocks, fishing poles in hand, and the pelican’s struggle caught the woman’s attention. She called her partner over, and together they snapped into action. He reached down and grabbed the end of the creature’s long, prehistoric beak, holding it firmly shut, while she pulled a knife from her pocket and went to work on the fishing line that had entangled the bird.

It wasn’t quick; the pelican’s thrashing had only made matters worse. But she kept at it, patiently, and the bird submitted to her care. Once they were satisfied that no strands remained, the man let go and the bird flew off, to applause from the small crowd that had gathered to watch.

The pelican landed in the water just a few yards away and remained there. Was it injured? Periodically, it gave a big flap of its wings without gaining altitude. Maybe the formerly trapped wing was damaged. Perhaps the bird was waterlogged from its captivity in the crevice, or maybe it was just stunned, trying to get its bearings. It really was time for us to turn around, but I couldn’t stop watching.

You know the story has a happy ending, right? Eventually, with a few strong flaps, the pelican lifted out of the water and flew an enormous test-circle, practically buzzing its rescuers as it passed the jetty. They noticed, and pointed, and the beachgoers cheered again.

The story didn’t stop with the rescue, though. As the pelican floated there, gathering strength, the couple was gathering all the old fishing line they could find among the rocks, eventually amassing armloads. It wasn’t their mess, but they cleaned it up anyway.

It wasn’t their mess,
but they cleaned it up anyway.

These days, when so much of the news makes us heartsick (yet unable to look away), what a relief to witness a reminder of the basic goodness of humanity.

This is the point in a blog post where I’d ordinarily launch into a little lesson. I’d unpack the pelican story, musing about our Advent call to be attentive, perhaps, or to help others with the gifts and skills God has given us, or to care for creation, or to leave a place better than we found it. But honestly, I think this story speaks for itself.

More importantly, Eric Clayton has already written that essay, in a beautiful post from Ireland called “The Man Who Untangles Seagulls.” Different coast, different bird, but a similar (amateur) rescue, which led Eric to muse about our call to show up in the moment and respond as best we’re able. Click the image below to read it!

“The Man Who Untangles Seagulls” by Eric Clayton at IgnatianSpirituality.com

May you reap the blessings of attentiveness, this Advent and always!

Writing

Books I Love by People I Love (2025)

‘Tis the season . . . for curated book lists! Here’s my quirky annual contribution, with just two rules: I have to 1) genuinely like the book and 2) know the author personally (enough to have had a conversation).

If you’re shopping online (I’m looking at you, Cyber Monday), I beg of you, GET NOT YOUR BOOKS FROM AMAZON. Local independent bookstores need our December dollars! If you don’t have one near you, try Bookshop.org, where you can indicate which local indie your purchase will support, or Barnes & Noble, a bona fide brick-and-mortar chain.

And if you want to gift any of my books for Christmas, just email me and I’ll move heaven and earth to get personalized, signed copies to you or your chosen recipients.

Enough said. Here’s the 2025 edition of Books I Love by People I Love:

Lilli de Jong: A Novel, by Janet Benton
Janet is a Philadelphia-based writing coach. Her debut novel, set among Quakers in Germantown in the late 1800’s, follows the travails of an unwed mother forced to make her way in the world in the face of heartbreaking poverty and prejudice. GIFT THIS TO anyone who enjoys a compelling, immersive read.

If I Loved You, I Would Tell You This,
Short Stories by Robin Black
Robin is a local author I met years ago when Lynn Rosen hosted a discussion of Robin’s novel Life Drawing (which I also recommend). Wanting to read more, I discovered her marvelous book of short stories. Fun fact: last year, I ran into Robin at an Authors Guild happy hour and fan-girled her so hard it might have freaked her out a bit. GIFT THIS TO anyone who needs their exquisite writing in small doses.

Finding Peace Here & Now: How Ignatian Spirituality Leads Us to Healing and Wholeness, by Eric A. Clayton
The fun and prolific Eric Clayton released his third book this year, and I got to review it for the National Catholic Reporter. It’s not enough to wring our hands and pray for peace, Eric insists. “If peace is what we desire, then we need to practice it.” A generous writer, Eric provides many helpful suggestions for how to practice peace within ourselves so that we can extend it to others. GIFT THIS TO anyone who doesn’t like what today’s political climate is doing to their blood pressure.

World of Wonders: A Spirituality of Reading, by Jeff Crosby
Jeff (with whom I’ve enjoyed an epistolary friendship for several years) has written an intriguing memoir chronicling the intersection of his faith and his reading, including the evolution of his relationship with Scripture, poetry, and fiction. He identifies literature that has nourished him in various seasons of life, and provides carefully curated lists of works he has found helpful and we might too. GIFT THIS TO anyone who’d like 174 MORE book recommendations (I’m not even kidding) to enrich their spiritual life.

Common Ground: How the Crisis of the Earth is Saving Us from Our Illusion of Separation, by Eileen Flanagan
Eileen is a good friend, and I’ve had the privilege of reading parts of this book in draft form ever since we went to the When Words Count retreat together in 2017. Common Ground takes readers on a journey to places where environmental disasters are being exacerbated by corporate interests and dishonesty. Yet this is not a “doom and gloom” book; Eileen interviews climate activists, spiritual leaders, and ordinary, warm-hearted citizens, all working together to banish our “illusion of separation” from one another and from the earth that gives us life. GIFT THIS TO anyone who wants to be better equipped to talk persuasively about the crisis facing our planet.

Together Through Reflection: Themes for Those Who Lead and Serve in Catholic Organizations, by Bridget Deegan-Krause
For decades, Bridget has worked to equip mission-focused leaders for service. Designed as a resource for faith-based leaders to use with their teams, this accessible guide offers practical direction for producing an effective and prayerful reflection experience. (Now, there’s a book I wish I’d had during my years in campus ministry!) GIFT THIS TO anyone who works for a Catholic institution—especially if they are in a leadership role.

The Soul Also Keeps the Score: A Trauma-Informed Companion to the Spiritual Exercises of Saint Ignatius, by Robert W. McChesney, SJ
Convinced by decades of work with traumatized individuals that a siloed approach to care undermines holistic recovery, my friend Rob brings spiritual and psychological insights to the table and insists that they have a conversation.  The Soul Also Keeps the Score is part color commentary on the life and legacy of soul-wounded swashbuckler-turned-saint Ignatius of Loyola, part deep dive into cutting-edge research in trauma studies. In it, Rob navigates the turbulent waters among disciplines in the service of that most Ignatian of goals: to help souls. GIFT THIS TO anyone frustrated by the divide between psychology and religion. Bonus: Rob and I have begun offering retreats together; we’ll be at Cranaleith (Philadelphia) in January and Bellarmine (Chicago) in March!

Living the Camino Back Home: Ignatian Tips for Keeping the Camino Spirit Alive, by Brendan McManus, SJ
I first encountered Brendan through his wonderful book about the Ignatian Camino called The Way to Manresa, later discovering that most of his books have to do with the Camino de Santiago (Way of St. James). Based in Dublin, he spends time in Spain each summer, supporting pilgrims through the Camino Companions program. This little gem of a book provides valuable insight on how to sustain the transformative effects of a pilgrimage in everyday life. GIFT THIS TO anyone who returned from a pilgrimage asking, “Now what?”

Jesus Before God: The Prayer Life of the Historical Jesus, by Hal Taussig
In the late 90’s, I had the amazing experience of taking a few of Hal’s graduate classes at Chestnut Hill College. A Methodist minister and Scripture scholar, Hal opened the Bible for me like no one before or since. This imaginative portrait of Jesus at prayer is a palate-cleanser of a book, readying us for a fresh encounter with God. (Note: it may be out of print, but gently-used copies abound!) GIFT THIS TO anyone who’s intrigued by the notion of a “historical” Jesus.

That’s it for this year, friends. For more ideas, check out 2024 and 2023.

Spirituality

The Blindfold

Last week, I was caught in afternoon traffic driving home from a retreat. When the school bus ahead of me reached a red light, two little girls flattened themselves against the back window.  How cute, I thought—followed by, Why do we let this precious cargo ride like loose eggs in a box? Both thoughts were chased from my mind, however, when that precious cargo began mugging and gesticulating at me. Whacky faces, strange hand gestures . . . what the heck?!?

Kids today, I muttered, striving to keep my eyes averted and my face impassive.

I don’t know what made me peek at the girls again. (Holy Spirit, perhaps?) When I did, I noticed that they weren’t trying to get my goat; they were trying to get me to play Rock-Paper-Scissors! I grinned, made eye contact, and gave the familiar one-two-three hand gesture. They jumped with delight, and we got three rounds in before the light turned green and I needed my hands back.  We continued to play at every light until our paths diverged and we had to wave goodbye.

Rock crushes scissors (in case you didn’t know)

This month, my IVC Virtual Community is reading a chapter of Greg Boyle’s Cherished Belonging called “The Blindfold.” That’s Boyle’s image for whatever prevents us from seeing one another as God sees us. “When this blindfold falls,” he says, “we focus on what is precious in the soul of the person in front of us” (p. 65).

When this blindfold falls, we focus on what is precious
in the soul of the person in front of us.

Playing Rock-Paper-Scissors with those precious girls was (in the words of a woman I met at my American Pilgrims on the Camino gathering last week) the kind of “joy snack” that could keep me going for the rest of the day. I had been judging the kids’ behavior so harshly, on so little information. I’m glad the blindfold dropped in time!

Wishing you at least one eye-opening experience this week.

Christine

P.S. Typing the phrase “get my goat” above made me wonder about the origin of that expression. Curious? NPR has your answer! 


School bus image by Taken from Pixabay; Rock-Paper-Scissors by HeungSoon from Pixabay

Travel, Writing

Train Time

When Porter and I decided to take Via Rail across Canada, we had no doubt we’d enjoy ourselves. We love train travel, and the sleeper-car experience was a real “bucket list” item for each of us. I was a little worried about how I’d handle the absence of WIFI on the Canadian, but mostly I was just curious about the outer and inner journeys. Here’s what I discovered . . .

Large Vistas and Small Spaces

Canada is vast. The province of Ontario takes two days to traverse by train, with nothing but evergreens and lakes flying by the window. Manitoba and Saskatchewan come next, all prairies and farmland. Then it’s Alberta, gateway to the Rockies, which are so much bigger than my east coast existence prepared me for. Across Alberta then into British Columbia and down through Washington, we beheld forests, mountains, and even glaciers of enormous proportions. Everything was gorgeous. It was hard to peel my eyes away.

And yet, the snug scale of train life was also a pleasure. Even though we’d packed lightly for the extended trip, we could only bring into our compartment the things we absolutely needed on the train. Comfy clothes, in layers. A few books and crossword puzzles. Toiletries. Travel mugs. The compartment provided enough nooks and hooks for us to have a place for everything. It felt like a small private room in a (gently rocking) retreat house. We could venture over to the dining car, lounge car, and dome car, but that was the extent of our world for four days. I was blissfully content.

In my last blog post, I reminisced about mornings at the Jersey shore before laptops and smart phones, when “I’d rise first, slip out of our room, brew the coffee, head to the deck, pray and/or journal, then get comfortable with whatever novel I was reading. Presently, the sliding door would open and there would be Mom, coffee in one hand, novel in the other.” Mornings on the train were remarkably similar, except I’d take the thermos of coffee I’d prepped the night before to the darkened dome car and pray while watching the train’s headlights illuminate the landscape ahead. Presently, Porter would slide into the seat next to me so we could watch the sun transform the pre-dawn sky together. It was a beautiful reminder of God’s slow and steady work, even in the darkness of our lives.

Sunrise out the rear window of the Dome Car
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Scripture, Spirituality, Writing

Fear Locks the door

When the Catholic Preaching Institute asked me to write 300 words “From the Pew” for Pentecost, I knew exactly what I wanted to write about!

You can see the Gospel and the “From the Pulpit” commentary, along with my reflection, here on the St. Charles Borromeo Seminary website. This is what I wrote:

From the Pew: June 8, 2025
Pentecost Sunday (John 20:19-23)

When I was in my thirties, my mother and I had a running disagreement about whether she should lock her screen door at bedtime. “The only person a locked screen door keeps out is a relative with a key!” I would insist—usually after spending way too long trying to get my parents’ attention on a Saturday morning before cell phones. But Mom could not be dissuaded. Although the home was secured by a lock and a German shepherd, flipping that little latch gave her a bit more peace.

One can’t blame the disciples for bolting the door after Jesus’ execution; as his followers, they were understandably terrified. And yet, just as Mom’s screen door was vulnerable to any two-bit burglar with a box cutter, the disciples’ barricade was not going to thwart anyone truly bent on doing them harm. Nor was it an obstacle for Jesus, who appeared in their midst and offered them peace.

But note what Jesus did not offer them: safety.  He didn’t say, “You don’t have anything to be afraid of,” or “Nothing bad will ever happen to you.”  Indeed, he did the opposite: showed them the brutal evidence of his crucifixion, then sent them forth as the Father had sent him. And we know that they went on to suffer for their faith, often meeting violent ends.

The fears that keep me up at night cannot be put to rest by even the strongest lock. Everyone I love will die—unless I beat them to it, which may also be no picnic. Untold hardships await us all. Fortunately, the peace Jesus bestows is not dependent on untroubled circumstances, but on our embrace of his Spirit’s abiding presence.

Fear locks the door, but Jesus walks right in. Will we accept peace on his terms?

Book Tour, Pilgrimage, Spirituality, Writing

Englewood Review

This week, I was thrilled to read Catherine Anne Sullivan’s take on Finding God Along the Way in the Englewood Review of Books. Besides being positive promo, it’s going to bring my book to the attention of people well beyond the reach of my usual target-audience circles.

Catherine’s writing is gorgeous, so enjoy that for its own sake! Click on her name to explore more of her work.

Here’s the review, entitled Reflections Centering on Presence:

Catherine Anne Sullivan

Book Tour, Pilgrimage, Retreats, Spirituality, Writing

It’s In There

When I returned from the Ignatian Camino, my challenge was to transform a personal experience of pilgrimage into a book that could touch the hearts of people who might never be able to walk away from their life for a month. Now that Finding God Along the Way is out in the world, a new challenge has arisen: transforming words on a page into living, interactive retreat experiences.

I can’t think of a more hospitable place to begin than the Cranaleith Spiritual Center, where last Saturday I led a morning retreat called “The Long Pilgrimage to Justice.” Moved by a spectrum of concerns, ten souls braved the cold to gather in a sunny room and ground themselves for the work ahead. Together, we considered how the metaphor of pilgrimage could allow us to keep our goal on the horizon while staying deeply present to what is right in front of us. Drawing on wisdom from the Ignatian Camino, we discussed finding our “one thing,” taking the next step, redefining failure, and equipping ourselves spiritually.

My favorite part came near the end. Thoughout the morning, I’d been sharing snippets that speak to me—Scripture verses, songs, poems, quotes, etc. Finally, I read a passage from Chapter Sixteen of my book, “It’s in There,” and invited people to share what they carry in their own “go-bag” of inspiration.

The responses began as slowly as an afternoon snowfall, but each offering encouraged the next until the room was blanketed by consolation. It was such a joy to hear people ask one another, “Wait, who was that author?” “What was the name of that song ?” “Tell me that website again!” Phones came out so folks could look things up; pens came out so we could write them down.

One gentleman shared a reflection from Unfolding Light that captured the spirit of the day. It began: Hope is not anticipation of a certain outcome, but trusting goodness. Though the world around us abounds in hateful rhetoric right now—with even people on “our side” (whichever side that may be) delighting in mean memes and zinging caricatures—it was refreshing to remember how much goodness dwells in people’s hearts and memory banks.

Hope is not anticipation of a certain outcome, but trusting goodness.

Steve Garnaas-Holmes

It made me realize that, just as January is a month in which many of us return to a healthier diet after the excesses of the holiday season, so is this a time to be careful about our mental consumption. What we read, watch, and listen to has a profound effect on our spiritual health. Let’s resolve to choose wisely!

Can you spot the potassium-rich banana in Betsy’s backpack?
What’s in your “go-bag” of inspiration?

Excerpt from Chapter Sixteen, “It’s in There”

“I know we’re supposed to be praying during the first two hours of every walk. Does repeatedly taking the name of the Lord in vain count?”

I cracked this joke at the end of a particularly pressured segment of hiking, but I wasn’t actually swearing my way across Spain. The only truth in that snarky remark was the word “repeatedly.” When the pace or terrain overwhelmed my ability to pray deeply (by which I mean conversationally, meditatively, or imaginatively), I took comfort in repeating words and phrases lodged in my memory.

It began during that long ascent to Arantzazu. Knowing that we were going to “visit” the Blessed Mother, I was thrown back to one of my mom’s favorite prayers, the Memorare. As I grew more exhausted by the climb, I resorted to repeating the last sentence like a mantra, in cadence with my steps: O Mother of the Word Incarnate, despise not my petitions, but in your mercy hear and answer me.

Gradually, other words emerged from the deep. Once upon a time, I’d memorized a few prayers in Spanish, so I was able to pass a satisfying hour trying to drag those beloved lines out of the mental vault. Later, I challenged myself to piece together all four verses of Tagore’s “Friends Whom I Knew Not,” which I’d quoted extensively in my book Finding God Abiding. In both cases, something about the combination of meaningful words and mental exercise sustained me for quite a while.

Various Scripture passages joined the parade of words in my head. Walking through the mountains, I recalled the beginning of Psalm 121: “I will lift up my eyes unto the hills, from whence shall come my help.” On another day, I clung to St. Peter’s incredulous exclamation after Jesus asked if he wanted to jump ship like other faint-hearted followers: “Lord, to whom shall we go? You have the words of everlasting life.” Mile after mile, the rhythmic “Lord, to whom shall we go?” reminded me that there was nowhere I’d rather be.

Certain hymns also provided prayerful refuge. Gospel songs such as “Guide My Feet” and “We’ve Come This Far by Faith” encouraged me to press on. The sight of a little dead bird evoked “His Eye is on the Sparrow,” assuring me that I was not alone. Even though such repetitive prayer isn’t ordinarily my style, I’m grateful to have had access to such richness under duress.

In the age of smartphones, the ability to “look anything up” is both a gift and a curse. Though vast amounts of information are there at our fingertips, the convenience discourages committing things to memory. But even if I’d had cell service in the Cantabrian mountains, what would I have done—pulled out my phone and said, “Hey Siri: What’s a good prayer, poem, Scripture, or song for when you’ve climbed higher than you would have thought possible but still have an impossible distance to go?” (Okay, I just tried it, and got a link to “30 Prayers to Give You Peace of Mind When You Need It Most,” but there’s no way I could have flipped through them without dropping my phone or dropping out of the pack!)

Back in the late 80s, a series of Prego spaghetti sauce commercials featured the slogan “It’s in there!” (All the ingredients a home cook could want, right in one convenient jar.) Prego is Italian for “You’re welcome,” so perhaps that’s God’s response as I offer thanks for all the heartening words that dwell in my memory banks and offer themselves as needed. “Prego!”

Scripture, Spirituality, Writing

A New Look at Cana

I am grateful to my friend Alli Bobzien (whom I met during the amazingly generative “Ignatian Creators Summit” offered by the Jesuit Media Lab last summer) for offering me a guest spot on her Substack, The Pondering Heart.

In it, I dive into my long-standing gripe about tomorrow’s Gospel and how I finally got my heart around it.

While you’re on Alli’s site, be sure to poke around and read some of her own beautiful writing. My favorites among recent posts are “The Heart of the Fire” and “The Inkeeper’s Daughter.” The first is a poem and the second a dive into historical/biblical fiction, but both are gorgeous!

Click the image below to read on . . .

Photo by Oshin Khandelwal on Unsplash

Book Tour, Pilgrimage, Spirituality, Travel, Writing

Podcast Season: Join My Conversation with Mary Fran Bontempo

My book is in the wild, so you know what that means . . . It’s podcast season! I’m grateful to my friend Mary Fran Bontempo for being first out of the gate with this fun conversation. Click the image below to listen.

Note: Mary Fran’s latest book, From Broken to Brilliant, made my 2024 list of Books I Love by People I Love. Check it out!

Image by Basil Smith from Pixabay
Liturgy, Spirituality

The Work of Christmas: Choir Edition

When you sing in a church choir and Christmas falls mid-week, you know you’re going to be spending a lot of time in church: Christmas Eve and/or Day (possibly multiple services); then Saturday and/or Sunday; and then—if you’re Catholic—the Solemnity of the Blessed Virgin Mary, Mother of God. That’s right: on New Year’s Eve/Day, we have a holy day of obligation honoring the woman who convinced her son to make more wine for a party. (And people say the Church doesn’t have a sense of humor.) This pitches us into another weekend, after which even people who’ve had the whole two weeks off are firmly back at work and you’ve been to church like 72 times.

Not that I’m complaining. Really! These liturgies celebrate things that are profound and powerful and—if you’ll pardon the bumper sticker wisdom—the reason for the season.  But that’s not the only thing we’re doing in church these days. Christmas, as it turns out, is also a season for funerals.

Sometimes that’s because people go “home for Christmas” (in the words of a Steven Curtis Chapman song that should come with a pack of tissues) or hold on for one last holiday before letting go. Other times, a loved one has died weeks or even months earlier, and family is spread across the country, and this is the best time to bring everyone together.

We had two funerals at St. Vincent’s this week.  The first was for the matriarch of a large family, whose husband we buried earlier this year. With a full church and two pews’ worth of grandchildren looking on, her three handsome sons stood at the ambo and wept their way through the eulogy. It was beautiful. 

The second was for a woman who had been living in a nursing home for many years, who died two weeks shy of her 100th birthday. She had one mourner: a niece in her eighties. And yet we cut no corners. The five-person bereavement ministry team and other parish staff were there; two of them sat with the niece and found each song in the hymnal for her. We did all the music. Our pastor gave a full-blown homily. It was beautiful.

It’s like eternity in a snow globe.

There is something deeply poignant about a Christmas funeral. It’s like eternity in a snow globe. The light of the paschal candle glows in the twinkle of hundreds of tree lights in the sanctuary. The casket or urn rests just a few steps from the babe in the hay. And above it all looms the crucifix—which at St. Vincent’s is a mural that includes the Blessed Mother reaching for her son, as she does in the manger tableaux below. Birth and death and the promise of new life, all together in that one holy space.

There’s nowhere I’d rather be.